Heather Y published this post on 27 January 2010...
I don’t like change. I’ve never liked it. And I don’t think I’m ever going to grow to like it.
Don’t get me wrong – I like it when I get there, it’s more the anticipation of change that I don’t like. I love being on holiday, but I hate that unsettled feeling before you go, and just before you’re due to come home.
There are big changes afoot for the Young family at the moment, and I have this constant feeling of unease and nausea.
Work’s up in the air. We’re moving house, but I don’t know where to or when yet. Young Daddy will be starting to work shifts. I don’t know where Ez and Fonz will be going to nursery, or even if they’ll be going to nursery at all.
It’s like I finally got to know my new self as a mother, and then I created a new identity as a working mother (one that worked too hard and was no fun whatsoever), but now things have to change all over again. I’ve lost all my focus and I can’t work out where I’m going, or even where I want to end up. There are too many options, too many paths to choose between. I’m struck down with indecision, and feel unable to achieve anything.
I don’t think the new year helps. I’m often anxious at the beginning of a year. It’s when you reflect on your life, and try and work out what you want to achieve in the coming year.
What would a life coach tell me? To write a list? To try to put things in order of priorities/importance? To identify my goals?
I just wish I could be more laid back about life. Take it as it comes. But then I guess I wouldn’t be me.
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